Young Man

All the things, all happen to me, all my dreams. that all man kinds dreaming.
that god give me a life. START HERE.

when i was a child, i did not know why i am here in earth, what is my purpose? who is my father? do i have a father? do i need to have dreams? imagine what happen in the future? there is a lot of question in my mind?

or maybe just forget anything and play with my neighbors and other kids.their is a lot of question in my life that i want to know when i was a child.


The beginning>> I'm sitting at the back of our house, when i was thinking and hold a dog name glaza that is my best friend but suddenly she died when i was 7 years old.thinking why why i always alone, where is my father. waiting for my mom. crying.
thinking what will be happen to me in the future. and day comes always playing with my uncle and anti, forget everything that all i have know is playing, toys, jollen in Philippines playing around with somebody. but every night im thinking where is my father i did not see it.
i always suite a soldier shirt because my dreams when i was a child is to become a military, pilot, or doctor. there is a old man but suddenly he died when i was grade 6. every time that he saw me there is a smile in his face he told me that you always suite a soldier shirt he called me police hehe, i missed that old man.
i remember my grand grand father tell me the story about the war in world war 2, i really really missed her. this is the time that i really really miss miss something, people everything that passed in two my life.
my mam always told me about my grand grand mother that i am the favorite of my grand grand mother, she died when i was 1years old i think. my mam told me the she is so very nice, and good. you know if they have a chance to come back in the passed for 20minutes i want to see what is my mistake, and i want to see my grand grand father and grand grand mother, i want to hug both of them and tell them that thank you for everything. i did not know why i need to do it.
there is a time i am so lonely, waiting for my mam because my mam when i was a child she is always in work and abroad to provide all i need, study etc. i always looking outside of the window look at the sky and ask question in my self where my mam come back, where is my dad? when i was a child i did not know who is god. there is no somebody to introduced who is god.

Grade school>> i study early because my mam told me that i am genius hehe. actually i am graduate when i was 20years old. i am so naughty in school when i was grade 5 i dont have friends in school actually my friends is always dog hehe. i remember i always pant ch my classmate in his face that i am so naughty i did not know why may be because i did not know what i am doing.i have a lot of money when i was in grade school because my mother is in Taiwan working on for me my classmate always INGIT to me for what i have. i have a phone when i was grade school see im reach hehe.
love story: i have a puppy love when i was grade school name ivel because you know when she is a child she is so cute and etc.and he told me that she loves me so that's why im falling in love with here. but now you know she has a husband and daughter haha. i dont want to be her husband haha im not kidding. actually he is my neighbor and my bestfriend, i like her because she is so good.
when i was graduate in grade school i notice that i have a father that my grand mother is always get to me in our house i did not know that she is my grand mother i did not know why. and who is my father. my mam talk to me about my father he told me etc, so thats why i know it.

HIGH school >> i always crying in to my room and thinking who i am, why i am here. why i need may father there is a lot of question in to my mind about why why i have a father why he is not in my side. why my mam have a husband that is not my true father there is a lot of question. every night im thin kin , crying, watching the star look at my window room, ask question in to my self.